Taboo Words...Why are some of them taboo?

I've had some questions linger in my head.  Things I don't understand.  Some people insist that in no way is there a reason to use certain words.  Other say a little mild "language" is necessary at times.  Me?  I don't really get why many of them are really that bad or taboo to say.

I'm going to censor myself here for the sake of being respectable to those offended.  That's my stance on it.  Don't use it around people who don't like it.  That's responsible and respectful to not offend.

"Da** it."  Ok, so what is wrong with this word or phrase.  Well, it's suggesting that one should send 'target' to he**.  Ok, I suppose that's bad if you saying "Da** you" to someone.  Even "Darn you" would be bad as "darn is nothing more than skirting around the other word.  But just blaring our "Da**" or "Da** it" is just a way of expressing anger towards some thing or some situation.  Why is this bad?  That I cannot answer.  Surely it'd be better not to be angry, but saying that doesn't change the fact that you're angry.  It's just sort of a burst or release of anger.  Maybe people should say it more often.  I tend to think people are a little too conservative as they think that saying that word could lead to unfair or misdirected anger at a person.  Maybe that's what it is.  Either way, though.  I think it's just find to blurt out "da**" when you hit your thumb with a hammer.

"He**" or "What the he**."  He** is a bad place.  No doubt.  Surely saying "Go to he**" is vary inappropriate and damaging.  But is blurting out "what the he**" that bad?  Your direction isn't towards a person, but maybe an action or situation.  The context of the word is not directly speaking of he** as in the place.  It's merely a strong reaction to something.  Again many will argue that the use would lead to saying something against a person, but it's one's own fault if they direct it at a person or use it in such a way to hurt someone else.  Don't put the blame on the word, but on the way it is used.

"Fu**."  Ok, so this word is offensive for an obvious reason as it is meant to be used as a lustful term for sex or fornication.  Many would find this offensive.  Agreeable?  But what about some of it's other uses that are not said in the context of sex?   For instance "what the fu**?"  Same deal as "what the he**."  They do not directly address their original meaning.  Another use of the word is to be avoided.  "Fu** you," for instance, is used to insult or throw anger at a person or people.  Simply don't use it like that.

"Sh**."  Another word and by the way what about "crap?"  Does it not mean the same thing.  Ok, so one is offensive and 'vulgar,' but the other is not.  Bullsh**.  It has the same meaning.  It refers to fecal matter.  Fecal matter is nothing more than the waste product of a person or animal.  What's so offensive about it.  It's a natural byproduct.  And again it has the same meaning as crap.  They're two words that mean exactly the same thing.  What's the problem here?

Those are the main ones that I wanted to touch upon.  There are many other words, too, but there's no point in talking about them.

What about movies?  Are they really necessary in movies.  Maybe, maybe not.  I think it just shows what kind of character the people portrayed in the movie are like.  Maybe they're the kind that swear a lot or cuss each other out.  So is this bad to put it in a movie?  Well, movies are violent sometimes and given the right context these movies are in as violence always seen as bad in the real world.  Why should it be any different to have someone in a movie swear at someone else in anger?  Do these things carry on from the movie to the real world?  Only if you weren't brought up better than that.  Movies are not influences.  It's your friends and family and the people you are close to that are your influences.

I happen to believe that works of fiction need to use what they can, because they reflect how our world is.  Film reflects real life many times.  It's never the other way around.

But feel free to make an argument against these things.  I likely won't take too much consideration as I've already made up my mind, but at least you can give me your reasons why not to use these words.  Personally to me it's all context and target.  And also not saying it around people that would be offended.  Otherwise use them if you like.  I don't see why they're harmful in certain contexts.

Old 16-bit Era RPGs

You have to admit RPGs aren't like they used to be.  I like a lot of the new ones.  They're great, but there are a lot of old ones that I never got around to playing.  8-bit, 16-bit, and even some of the 32-bit generation games.  Turn based RPGs may be a thing of the past.  Though, they may come back in new forms like console or even windows downloads, it's great to check them out all over again.  I never did get to really play many of the old Final Fantasies of the 16-bit days.  I'm reliving that with Final Fantasy 5.  I want to get 6, too eventually.  Another game I'm playing on my 3DS is the DS version of Chrono Trigger.  Both of these old RPGs are bringing me back.

There are so many, I could probably play them for a long time to come.  I could never finish them all while keeping up with the new.  Yeah.  There's enough to last me a lifetime, now.  Secret of Mana, though action oriented, is an RPG that I'd truly like to get into again as well.  Also there is Secret of Evermore.  I haven't checked, but I'm hoping that I can get that as a Wii download.

The Phantasy Star series is another series I'd love to take a stab at.  I did beat the third one and as a matter of fact I have that and the fourth installment on Sonic's Ultimate Genesis Collection for my PS3.  Don't forget the Dragon Quest series as well.  I remember the first one, known as Dragon Warrior, and there have been many since then.  Wow.  Just thinking of all of them that I could play, makes my head explode.

If your into all this RPG nostalgia your best bet is to get a DS or 3DS and play many that were ported onto the DS.  Or get them on the Wii.  Nintendo's got many.  Even the Playstation Network has some old ones that were previously ported to the Playstation 1.

Don't forget to save your game.

Disabled or Not Able By Employer Standards?

I've struggled wit this little question for a while now.  Am I disabled or is it just the view of all the employers I've had that I don't work up to their standards, whatever that is?  Every job I've had for the most part has had the employer let me go before my diagnosis for reasons I couldn't see up till now.  The last one, I can see the problem more clearly and others in the past, not so much.  "You're not working up to our standards," seems to be the basic reason that it comes down to.

I had a job that was unfortunately only going to be a temp job anyway.  In this job I was more or less running this easy peasy software that allowed me to scan in accounting records for (unnamed company), because they were in legal trouble.  The documents, as far as I could tell, went in without a hitch and even a few around me said they could believe they were getting paid so much for this job, because it was easy.  So why did they let me go?  It was easy, right?  I certainly thought it was.  But here comes that bare bones answer.  "You weren't working up to our standards."  Could they be any less clear?  I didn't even think to ask them why and I don't know if it would have mattered anyway.  I was let go and that was that.

Some things do restrict me.  Working at a grocery store was a bad move.  I worked there awhile till the sensory overload got the better of me and I kept telling myself at the end that I wasn't giving up, but they asked me to quit, but there's where I knew why.  It's a social job that I was doing or rather wasn't doing very well at.  I certainly wasn't the man for the job.

So what about other jobs.  What made me so bad that I couldn't scan simple documents?  I can see some of my disabilities, but surely I can have a job doing something and make a simple living.  I know I can.  First there are so few jobs that I can take advantage of around here, so that makes one thing difficult and the other thing I kind of question whether society has something to do with it.  Yes, an employer must, if they can, accommodate for you once hired, if hired.  But I would need some assistance to get into these jobs.  Also a lot of jobs, if I'm not mistaken, need to have at least a couple disabled people to show they are accommodating.

One part of society looks down on me saying "Get a job!"   And then there's the employers of America saying "You don't work to our standards."  What a dilemma.  Society can see that I can work.  I can see my strengths and weaknesses.  But employers just look at potential employees and are very critical.  You just can't win in the job world when it comes to having Aspergers.

So, what is it?  Neurodiverse minded people say it's our society's fault and we are not disabled.  While the other people, and I sit in the middle wondering, say they are disabled, because we have weaknesses.

Started Skyrim Again

So my computer is working as it should again for the most part.  Not worry about anything else.  All the programs are on it that should be, pics, mp3s, videos, etc.

So I'm playing Skyrim again.  I started 2 weeks after mostly fixing the problem.  I'm really enjoying the game again.  I'm taking it into the right direction.  Trying to keep my path in the game mostly ethical.  I'm not joining "The Dark Brotherhood" or "The Thieves Guild."  Some areas of the game are kinda in the grey area.  Like you need to become a werewolf to fully become one of the companions.  I can cure myself later, if I want, but there's really no bad thing about being a werewolf on the game really.  There's fear among the people, so I better not either use the power or change while a guard or someone else is looking.  But really when you become a werewolf, as long as you don't murder any innocents or do anything really bad, there's no real serious ethical issue.

But that's kind of how I play.  I try to keep on the straight and narrow, but there really are a lot of grey areas in the game's ethics.

I wasn't going to start doing alchemy, but at some point, after having picked up so many random ingredients, I thought I'd just fiddle with it and it's really interesting and fun.  So I'm actually crafting and enhancing and enchanting weapons and armor and that's a great part of the game.  It may seem dull to do to some people, but you need to break up the monotony of doing all those missions to some degree.  And it's the outcome of crafting that makes things in the game so fun.  That sense of accomplishment in it.

I'm so happy I've got a computer that can play the game as well as it does.  There's a enhanced graphics DLC for free that I can get, but it's not suggested unless your computer's specs all exceed the recommendations (note: not requirements) by a good degree.  If I had a better video card, I'd consider it.  I think it's fine as it is, though.

This game is going to last me a long time.  I haven't gotten far enough into it to marry anyone, but I plan on doing that, too.  I've furnished my first house in Whiterun.  It doesn't look like messy crap anymore.  Keeping my weapons and etc in a trunk, so I can enchant them later.  I think I will greatly enjoy Skyrim.

High Anxiety Levels

A lot of aspies don't get super anxious like me.  When they do it passes quicker.  I have a few anxieties and my biggest one has to do with my computers or mostly my main one.

I backup everything in more than one place, whether it be in the cloud like iTunes or on a separate hard drive.  So, why worry, they're not going to all go out at once.  Pfffft.  Of course not.  Even game saves get backed up.  Computer....Steam cloud.  Playstation....Playstation+.  What do I have to worry about?  So my computer may have to be fixed.  And it was finally over the past few days.  For the most part anyway.

So when something goes wrong enough with it that I feel I have to take the drastic measure of erasing my main drive and reinstalling everything, my anxiety shoots through the roof.  I worry about my backups.  I worry that it won't get fixed.  But why?  What's the worst that can happen?  I have backups.  I have a desktop and a laptop. I lose one and I have another temporarily.  (Can't play Skyrim on my laptop, of course...)  I don't have a lot of money, but what I do have are the skills to fix a computer.  I just hate fixing my own.

It's my aspie attachment to computers that kind of does it.  I worry so much when my electronics decide to give.  Even my iPhone (which I plan on stopping service on and switch to a pre-pay and use the iPhone as an iPod touch).

So, what do I do.  I'm learning that meditation and music for several minutes at a time is great relief, but I still need to learn when to use it and how long.  I also need to learn to redirect my thoughts when meditating.  I can't imagine clearing my mind like some say they do during meditation.  That's sort of an impossibility.  My mind is always on something.

Ranma 1/2 Live Action?

I guess I'm a little late at finding out about this since this was reported on ANN last year and the movie aired on Japanese TV in December.  But of course no word on an American release just yet.  That didn't stop me from finding a subbed version, not that I am endorsing using torrent sites or anything. >.>

Anyways, I've been getting back into Ranma 1/2 in the last few months and just started watching the show from the beginning, not long ago.  The thought occurred to me "What if this was live action?  What would it be like?"  And I just typed in "Ranma Live Action" into Youtube, not expecting much more than a fan made short.  Boy was I surprised to learn that one existed and was just shown in December.  What a coincidence.

Most of it is pretty much what you'd expect from Ranma, but there are some changes along the way that I was kind of fine with.  These changes weren't anything drastic and didn't change the characters much.  They still behaved in much the same way as always.  I think the biggest complaint would be the lack of Ryoga Hibiki, Shampoo, Ukyou (my personal favorite), and other side characters.  The ones they did include were Dr. Tofu, who is pretty much the school doctor as opposed to a regular doctor.  And of course we have Kuno (nothing different about him here).  There's also the character Gosunkugi.  He is not one I'm all that familiar with.

I've never seen all of the Ranma series before.  Previously the most I've seen were, at first, random episodes scattered through maybe 3 seasons and then there's the first whole season that my brother picked up on DVD quite a while back and now I have my own copy.

All in all, if you are a die hard fan maybe you'd prefer skipping it, if you're really nit picky about changes, but since this doesn't change anything drastic, I don't think most fans will mind.  It's still the same Ranma...just with real people.  So, if you wondered what it would be like as a live action movie, then definitely check into it....but um, try to avoid torrent sites.  Wait for the American release, if and when it gets here. =P

Can't Explain...

Are you an aspie that can't explain things very well or even worse can't do it especially when under pressure? Yeah. That's how I feel a good part of the time. It makes you look ignorant and feel stupid and then all these emotions come in to play.

Well, you're not alone. Believe me. You are not ignorant or stupid. You know exactly what you're talking about, even if others don't. You know why you think a certain way and why you feel a certain way about things around you. You just don't know how to put it in words others will understand. It's frustrating. I know. The best you can hope for is that someone else can help you or they find out some other way. Or just don't worry about it. Besides the same thing can go for NTs at times, too, just less often. People get stuck thinking about their side of things and forget that there are other ways of looking at things. It's kind of undignified. But that's peoold for you.

So just remember that they're about as ignorant as you are. No one knows the answer to everything. You know your logic, sondon't let people tell you you're not making any sense. Because in your mind, you know what you were trying to get across.