Living in an area with a small population can have its downsides

I live in a rural area.  Small population.  The town I'm outside of is really small.  Even the closest cities aren't that big.  Don't get me wrong.  I love the solitude and the peacefulness of where I live, but if I could at least live closer to really big places that'd be great.

Around this area and even in the small cities surrounding, it is a lot of country folk.  They don't care much about anime. They don't care so much about scifi.  They don't go around touting the newest technology or geeking out at the latest RPG.  Sure there are the few, but they are so hard to find.

There are no anime, comic book, scifi, horror, cons nearby.  There are no geekery clubs to hang around people with my like mind.  It feels so desolate sometimes trying to find even one person I can feel anything in common with.

I've tried so hard to find people in this area even using the internet for this very reason and I can not even find one person.  There are the few that I know and that's very few.  I want to hang out with more people like me.  I want to find a girlfriend that shares these interests.  It's just so lonely here not having much in common with the people I have grown in the same area with.

I hate to rant on and on about this, but it is a shame that people can not give any interest into the things I love most.  People just stick to what is popular.  They don't go searching for things that are different.  Things that are a little less common.  That's why a place with a bigger population would be nice to be closer to.  The chances of running into someone with the same interests would be bigger.  There would be anime stores or store with anime sections.  Places that hold my interest more than just these tiny little unheard of places that do not have any of the good stuff even if it might be related.

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Friends With Benefits? That Makes No Sense.

"Friends with benefits" is a concept that I can't fathom as an aspie or even just as a human being.  (I guess I don't need to just be an aspie not to understand.)  How can someone have sex with someone who is just a friend.  Wouldn't there have to be something there for them to have sex?  I understand it's probably lust or just the burning desire to have it.

Everyone has that, but when you're doing it the other person is seeing you bare, not physically, but emotionally and everything.  They're seeing you almost as a whole.  There is a lot more to sex than just mechanical and biological desires.  You're putting everything out on the line when you're having sex for the first time.  You're showing and giving your all to someone.  

Why do I see it this way?  Why not?  I can barely handle a hug from some people, especially from someone I barely know.  I feel uncomfortable with physical affections like hugs or kisses.  So that's the aspie part of me. Aspies, we have a hard time with connections to people.  That's why this concept of "sex without emotion or little emotion" doesn't seem to make sense to me.  I would have to be terribly comfortable with someone to do that with someone.  That's why sex isn't all "I'm horny, so I've got to do something about it."  I get desires like anyone else, but it doesn't make sense to do this without knowing what you're getting into.  The questions you'd have to ask are "How is this going to affect the relationship I'm in?"  "How will this make me feel?"  "How will this make my partner feel?"  "Will it break things?"  "Will it make things?"  "How do I feel?"

Bought an Empty Game Case

Ok, Amazon, very funny.  They sent me a case with instructions, but no game inside.  Ha ha.  Anyways, this happened Tuesday.  I contacted the seller, but they said that even though they were the seller of the item, it was fulfilled by Amazon, so I need to contact them, but all is well.  They refunded me and I sent it back; no charge on shipping.  I found out that Amazon started selling new copies on sale, so I'm getting it cheaper this time.

Is It Silly To Get So Excited Over This? XD

(Bottom Tweet:  Darialan: #AOTS Can you tweet me some Doritos?)

I got a real kick out of getting on "Attack of the Show's" twitter wall last night.  It's silly, really, I think to be so excited over it.  It was up there for maybe a split second.  I had the DVR recording it as usual, because I normally watch it later, so I catch the words "tweet" and "Doritos" and I thought "Was that my tweet that was just there before it scrolled off the screen?"  So I rewound it back and paused it and to my surprise it was.  Moments after I tweeted the message I got a message back from someone else with a picture of a couple bags of Doritos.  (Seen here)  I didn't realize till I looked at it again later that there was tape on the bags.  I thought it was just someone that saw my tweet at #AOTS on twitter.  Then I clicked on the guy's twitter account and it says that it was one of the executive producers.  I was like "Wow."

This is really the only reason I even use twitter.  That and to follow some people on the show and the show itself.  I sometimes follow "Weird Al."

Is it silly to get excited over this?  I mean there are different people showing up on the twitter wall everyday, so it's not unlikely that I'd show up at some point, right?  I don't know.  I felt kind of special.

Bethesda's Open World Games Not As Bad As I Thought

I had played Obvlivion and Fallout 3 previously.  I got rid of Oblivion awhile back, because I felt there was way too little direction, but now I'm realizing that the fun was finding it, but it's gone now.  Then later knowing that Fallout 3 was a big deal among the most popular open world RPGs.  I happened to love the idea of a full open world where I can go anywhere to explore.

I gave up on Fallout 3, but I couldn't really sell it, so it sat on a shelf for maybe 2 years.  What happened was that I ended up facing enemies that I could neither fight nor could I avoid.  I was so frustrated by the difficulty and confusion of this game and Oblivion that I refused to play any more games by Bethesda.  But earlier this week, I thought about giving Fallout 3 another chance.  Something entered my mind that maybe I wasn't meant to go too close to the areas where I couldn't fight.  I thought, maybe the quest wasn't in that area or that I should try doing something else.  That seemed to be the case.

I went back and restored a save that I backed up.  I was backing up saves from games that were left over on my computer and it's backup drive.  I started to follow more closely to what my missions were and where they were.  No problems this time.  I have run into some rough enemies, but I avoided them after trying again.  Uh oh, I shouldn't have gotten back into the game.  I started playing it for hours at a time.  It's positively addictive.  Now I can't stop.  Fortunately that's not entirely true.  It had postponed my normal lunch time a couple times, but I said to myself, "No!  I know you know what you can do next and how much you want to continue, but you need nourishment.  This could be a bad addiction if I let it."

Anyway, I've turned around on Bethesda's RPGs.  I will be getting better parts for my computer someday and when I do I will probably play Skyrim.  My computer can handle it as it is, but it doesn't have quite the recommended video card is all.  It's not a big thing.  They recommend a ATI HD Radion 4870 and I have a 4850 with 1GB of video ram.  Other than that my computer exceeds the recommended specs.

Anyway, I gave this company's games, in this case Fallout 3, a second chance and now I'm totally getting it.  Hunting for items for money was hard at first, too.  I can't forget to mention that that was a big concern of mine when playing those games as well.  But I'm getting the hang of it and loving it.