I've been drawn to emotional animes for quite awhile and now I think I know why. They make me cry and they make me feel emotions that I don't otherwise get. I believe what I'm unfortunately doing when watching drama animes like Clannad, Air, and Kannon is replacing people and feelings with something that I can more closely hang onto, since it is so hard for me to get close to anyone. This makes me kind of sad sometimes. I desperately want to have at least one offline close friendship, heck I want to go as far as having a girlfriend, but I really don't see that happening. I'm not able to get close to people without the internet, even online as many friends as I have I only have one close friendship there, I don't know how well that'd translate if I ever met him off the net and it's not that I'm afraid. I'm not. But without a means to meet people that I can really relate to, like the internet, I wouldn't have the friend or even friends I have now. I just wish there was someone close by that I wasn't afraid to get close to, that shared the same interests, feelings and everything.
Now as far as the girlfriend thing goes, I'm kind of picky. I'm stuck on looks. She doesn't have to look perfect, but I do have a problem getting past looks no matter what. It kind of makes me feel shallow, but I know that's not entirely true, because even if I found a person attractive looking, if they aren't enough like me, I wouldn't be able to form a relationship.
Anyways, I like my emotional animes and I guess I like them, because I experience feelings that I have a hard time otherwise feeling.
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